Every day I see people who are doing what I was supposed to do: write poetry, play music, practice law, design buildings, write books, sell books, run libraries (or at least work in them), do research, make art, perform songs. I am doing none of these; in the past I did some, but never got very good at any of them.
I would like to be good at something. I would like to do some of the things I used to do and some that I’ve never done. Basically I want to do whatever I see someone else doing. Envy: it’s the one thing we vulnerable narcissists are really good at.